Why I Climb Big Rocks > Part 5 – Bad Memory

Standing on the summit of The Central Tower with my best friend was the greatest moment of my life.

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Descending the tower was not.

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A brutal storm rolled in. We huddled inside the portaledge, waiting for an opportunity to descend.

After three days, we ran out of food and began descending anyway.

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After about twenty abseils, but still with a few more to go, the air above us suddenly ripped into a deafening, scraping scream.

An enormous rock was falling towards us.

There was no escape.

The event itself seemed to unfold in a silent, slow-motion blur; outstretched arms were crumpled, granite blocks exploded, pieces of our belay were plucked out of the rock, pain was temporarily hidden by shock.

We survived, somehow.

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But then I saw the belay.

All of our haulbags, all of our equipment, my life and the life of my best friend were dangling solely from a single strand of frayed cord, the thickness and strength of a shoelace, which was wrapped around an ancient, rusty piton.

Our lives were literally hanging by a thread.

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The adrenaline began to subside. Intense pain roared through my veins.

I tried to speak but the fuzzy onset of unconsciousness had frozen my voice into a hard lump of wordless desperation in my throat.

The rest of the descent is a distant blur in my memory. Always the strongest member of the team, Callum ensured we got down.

Back on the rubble-strewn ground, I untied from the rope and vowed to never climb again.

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My memory deteriorated as the months passed by. Time began to steal the details.

How I choose a climb:

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VDiff Climbing why i climb big rocks
VDiff Climbing why i climb big rocks
VDiff Climbing why i climb big rocks
VDiff Climbing why i climb big rocks

There are 3 characteristics that make a good big wall climber: A high tolerance of pain, a bad memory and ummm.... I forgot the other.

Read the full Patagonian epic story here.

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